Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Little Dog, Biggest Heart


Her favorite food was walnuts. From far away she could hear the snap of the lid and would rush over, sitting down quickly and looking up with an anticipating look in her big brown eyes.

Actually any time I snacked on anything she would do the same thing.

She really liked jumping on my bed at early hours and licking me all over my face. I would try to protect myself with my blanket but she would always find a way to burrow under and reach me.

Every time she jumped on my bed to take a nap she would go through a two-step process; first, roll around like crazy in my sheets, and then dig a nice little hole for herself under my blanket where she would stay comfortable, wrapped in a semi-U shape for hours.

Whenever she ate something hard she would crunch on it loudly with her mouth wide open. It was so cute.

She would jump up in a nanosecond when she heard the back door opening, either to say hello to the person who had just come home or to go outside. Whenever she dashed into the backyard she would find a little patch of sunlight and just lay there, looking around with pure content.

She loved playing tug of war with all her toys. She was always down to play fetch, no matter how far or quickly I threw her toy. I learned early on to only buy her toys that were made of rope and were durable--everything else she would tear apart. Vicious little thing.

Every time I got my car keys from the shelf she would know I was going out and would want to follow me to my car. She always knew when we were going to pick my brother up from school because all I had to say was, 'come on Nina,' and she would jump up from the bed.

She loved sitting in people's laps. Even when it was midnight, and she was sleepy, she would still rather stay in our lap than go to her own bed.

I loved when I would walk into the kitchen in the morning and see her peeking out from her bed. When she saw that it was me, she would run across the tile to greet me. She was always excited.

She would bark at something at least once a day, whether it was some insect or bird strolling around in the backyard or passing people and dogs in the front yard. She barked at stuffed animals. At ceramic turtles. At water sprinklers. We would yell at her to stop, without success. Fiercely loyal and really protective, not knowing her own miniature size.

She really liked being petted. When I would move my hand away she would try to stick her head under my hand again, demanding to be pet.

Whenever I would do sit-ups, she would think I was playing with her and try to bat at my face as I went up and down. It was very distracting. When I showed her I was serious about not playing around, she would settle down by sitting comfortably on my chest.

I loved coming home and seeing her scratch at the door, hearing her soft whines as I found my keys to get in. I loved picking her up with one arm, giving her kisses, and asking her if she had been a good dog while I was gone. I loved playing with her little paws, twirling her around and dancing because she was so agile on two feet. I loved sitting her down in my lap, hugging her like a baby, and gently petting her on the spot between her two big ears. I loved wrestling with her when she would bring her toys to me because she wanted to play. I loved her fearlessness, her excitement, her love for life, for food, and for her family.

I miss her so much.

Friday, June 24, 2011

Do You Own a Smartphone? You'll Get Far in China.

China's Migrant Workers and Smartphones as Status Symbols

Interesting. I was even more fascinated to discover at the end of the blog post that 90 percent of the world cannot afford a smartphone. Such a staggering statistic when I see my friends all put out their Androids, iPhones, and Blackberries to text someone back, check the score of a game, or google the answer to a question because it's right at their fingertips. Technology may be advancing at lightning quick speed, but it seems to be a very select sliver of the global population who is privileged enough to reap its benefits. Put someone who possesses the know-how to utilize this technology next to someone who probably doesn't even have a mobile phone, and where are you? One possible answer is the Beijing subway.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

China Might Bid to Build California's High-Speed Rail

Chinese Built U.S. Rail System. Tell Me How Does It Feel?

Really interesting post from China Law Blog. I remember during Expo when Ahhh-nold (pre-confession of scandalous affairs) came and made an announcement at the Pavilion about working with China to bring high-speed rail technology to California.

I don't think it will happen either, for the reason mentioned. It's too politicized a decision, especially seeing as how Americans' opinion of China has consistently been negative. Politicians campaigning on an anti-China platform would have a field day with this.

Hm...why can't Japan build our HSR? It'd probably be good for their economy too. Shinkansen ftw!

Monday, June 20, 2011

Gratefulness Part Deux

H:
when your grateful to be alive... you think about all the great friends and family you have in your life
no lie brandy...
i realized that sometimes i take the things i have for granted
i think its human nature to do so
but after this afternoon, i can't stop smiling for feeling how lucky i really i am

I will shed my grammar nazi-ness here and just focus on the important message. You're important. He's important. She's important. It's important. Everything becomes important in the moment you realize you may never again be able to express how important you are, he is, she is, it is, to me. This is the very meaningful and doubly scary experience my good friend recently had, and I think somehow the message had a transitive effect on me.

Never forget how grateful you should be. Treasure each person in your life, the experiences that you have, the opportunities that are given to you, because you can. The vulnerability of our lives necessarily dictates that taking things for granted is the most unnecessary form of squandering humans can possibly be guilty of.

All Facetiousness Aside...

And so what does this say about the society we now live in?

Man Robs Bank For $1 To Receive Free Health Care In Jail « Thought Catalog

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Stuck

Being at the airport fairly recently, I have an appreciation for this.


STUCK from Joe Ayala on Vimeo.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Gratefulness

The birds are chirping, the sun is out, and tomorrow is Father's Day. In this moment, I am happy. Even doing something as seemingly mindless as watching lavender incense burn and its ashes dropping as the fire takes its course downward is satisfying. With all the cynicism and pressure to constantly move forward abound in my life these days (and they seem to compound as I grow older), it's hard to remember that being happy is not difficult. But it only is true if you genuinely believe in it. I am reminded of a quote by David Rothkopf: "Our triumphs are all that much greater because they are not only victories over our enemies but also over ourselves."--Running the World

Friday, June 17, 2011

Delightfully Wasting my Days (and Tissues)

Why do we become sleepy when they cry? I feel like napping right now, after finishing this.


Ayaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Well That's Not Good

I was walking along in Little Tokyo today when I came across a man who offered to give me a poem in exchange for some lunch money. For a dollar, my day managed to go from a-ok to plain depressing.

No Soul
This life is so pathetic
Tragic existence
Necessary persistence of fate
And waiting for our own soul to transcend
whatever was never known.
We grow into the realm of truth
awaiting the youth of our infamy
For what is poetic infamy
is what is no match for reality
and still I see no future for the soul.
--Kenneth Towler


It also made me wonder what an intellectual like him was doing depending on the assistance of others. Whatever the reason, his personal journey must have been fraught with hardship and pain. The tragic point about education is that the more you know, the more you see for yourself what is wrong with the world. The suffering--other people's as well as your own--becomes even more distinguished and poignant.

I would put this in another post, but out of convenience I'm just going to discuss it here. I had a scary and vivid dream about being involved in an explosion. Not that I know what that feeling of sheer terror is like, nor would I ever hope to know, but I felt like my body was numb and my face had fallen off. I know the imagery is disturbing, but that's the only term I could actually use to describe the entire dream.

Ryan Tedder--American Pop's Hero

The most underrated musician/entertainer: Ryan Tedder. Some of his work includes writing songs for performers like Beyonce (Halo), Far East Movement (Rocketeer), Leona Lewis (Bleeding Love), Kelly Clarkson (All I Ever Wanted), James Morrison, Adele (current obsession of yours truly).
Others: Backstreet Boys, Ludacris, Gavin DeGraw, Whitney Houston, TATU, Natasha Bedingfield, Clay Aiken (?!), Westlife, Charice, Adam Lambert, on and on and on.

Not to mention his band One Republic and Apologize (love that song). This guy basically is the pillar of the American music industry. And you hear so little about him. Amazing.

A Disappointing Discovery

Context negligible, yesterday I was asked what the accomplishment I was most proud of to date was. I sat there, frozen, for a while. My mind went and stayed completely blank. I finally passed off a lame answer of being on the executive committee of my college co-ed fraternity and being in charge of 60 recruits for 10 weeks.

There has GOT to be something in my life I'm most proud of...what could it be? Blah.

Monday, June 13, 2011

Some Food for Thought

"Relationships are hard and I don't think we can make it work if we just settle. Because then in those moments of challenge and uncertainty, and they will exist -- we go back to the notion that they --are just good for us, and not the best we can get. We can feel and realize that someone we didn't think was good for us is. But when we force that, its just forcing logic and the tricky thing about relationships is that love is involved and thats not something that is just logical."


Venerable. Wisely stated. JWR is introspective like that.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Ding a Dong Ling Long

Today I learned that Vietnam's national currency is called the dong.

The things you learn each day...

A Harmonious Society Indeed

"The government always talks about ethnic harmony, but why do we feel so oppressed?"

The harder you push down on a spring, the more it will recoil in your face when you release it.

Forced assimilation. A paradoxical phrase?

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Home Ownership Prospects Still Under Duress

Subsidence Problem

US housing market does not look promising for the rest of the year.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Start Waking up at 9 AM

This morning Nina laid another poo in the house. For some reason, my mom went batshit crazy when she saw it. Her yelling woke me up and I ran out to see her aiming a fly swatter at our poor dog, who was emitting high-pitched whines in the corner of the kitchen.

I think my mom's been in a more irritated mood recently because she hasn't been able to find work. She's been at home studying for her GED and doing housework for about...6 months now. I've been free for about 3 days and I feel restless. The other realization I had has to do with my whole journey of self-reflection and finding ways I can be a better person. My mom brought Nina home because I had said I wanted a dog when I got back from China. Well, now she's here (not that I chose her, but I'm not complaining), and the person most responsible for training her would be me. Instead, I've dropped the ball. I was much more hard-working at the beginning, taking her out when I thought she needed to go, for example. I guess because I saw raising Nina as a family effort, so I thought I wouldn't have to walk her every day, potty train her, and clean her. Between my mom's screaming this morning and taking a walk with Nina to get away from her rage, I realized I am going to have to be more vigilant and consistent when it comes to training my pet. A dog can't be disciplined unless their owner is too.

On a brighter note, I feel like a kid who's been let out for summer vacation, even if it's just for a few days. I've picked up the guitar again. I learned how to play Ode to Joy last night. I've started reading things I've wanted to for a while but had to put off. I've had more time to exercise (BIG yay). I've also been revisiting good old Asian dramas. Never fails to be time-consuming. At the same time this would be the best time to get rid of my panda eyes, so staying up until 3 AM and crying my eyes out probably would not help...

Monday, June 6, 2011

Sigh.

Watching the Murder of an Innocent Man

While reading this story on the New York Times today this was the ad running alongside it.


Today is not a good day for my faith in humanity to be affirmed. Must be because it's a Monday.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

The Housing Market

Hm, conflicting forecasts on the housing market in the US. Ideally, as a somewhat-still-aspiring achiever of the American dream, I would like to own my own home one day, but I'm beginning to think the payoff is questionable.

Marketwatch: Why Housing is in a Depression

Wall Street Journal: Is it Time to Buy a Home?

Friday, June 3, 2011

From the USC Theses and Dissertation Formatting Guidebook

The things you learn each day...

"A widow occurs when the last line of a paragraph appears as the first line of a page. To
eliminate a widow, insert a page break a line earlier so that the last two lines of the
paragraph appear at the top of the next page.
An orphan occurs when a heading or the first line of a paragraph appears as the last line of a page. To eliminate an orphan, insert a page break before the orphan line."

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Escape Hatch Please



悶...

悶.

I...can't wait to go to Beijing.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Eraser

I realized I'm very good at erasing things. It may just be one of the biggest qualities I possess.

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