Pretty regular day. Errands were run, visited the gym, ate wings, watched football, napped, opened a bottle of wine the wrong way, cleaned my car, got a smog check, mailed a package, had a Bridgeway meeting, had a semi-productive Saturday. Not much contemplating going on. I thought about him, but I'm not necessarily missing him. I saw a picture posted of him on Facebook today and was glad he looked like he was having fun.
Being on the break has caused me to think about who I am outside of my relationship. Am I my own person? Am I happy with where I am in my life, in my relationships with other people? What else more could I be doing? I guess because in recent memory, the relationship hasn't been a defining, or at times even primary, feature of my life so that I've had the luxury of focusing energy on things larger than myself. Larger than a boyfriend. So maybe I shouldn't think about my relationship so much. I mean, it's important to think about it, but I don't want my waking hours to be dominated by being stressed over making choices and mulling over hypotheticals.
This will be the year of finding out more about myself. Hi Brandy. This will be the year of experiences and further discovery.
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