I've completed fewer volunteer hours and placed less energy in activities outside work life and I realized it's because that time I would usually spend is now spent lounging around, hanging out, and doing things with my boyfriend. A boyfriend I love dearly but with whom I have become super comfortable and comforted. It makes me feel like I've lost a part of myself, a part from which I found meaning and I guess...took pride in?
I'm seeking answers to the question of what I need to do in my life in order to feel fulfilled. I know it's not spending all my free time with my boyfriend. I have to actively tear myself away from hours spent hanging out and focusing on everything I actively participated in before being with him. Be my own person. Rediscover who I was before now. Prove that I can be the person who successfully juggles priorities in my life that constitute the person I want to be - having successful relationships, caring about my loved ones, going to the gym on weekends, blogging, volunteering, doing things that are bigger than myself, Be bigger than myself.
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